Alas!!

Oh no! College life is not permanent. In my case, it will soon end. I had this epiphany after reading "The Class" by Erich Segal. It was about students of Harvard batch of 1958 and the ups and downs in their lives till they met for their 25th reunion. I could relate myself to a
number of characters in the novel. Sadly, none of those characters was happy because everyone, though quite ahead in the rat race, was still a rat, with marvellous careers but painful personal lives, with loads of riches but little peace, with beautiful bed-parteners but no
life-partener.

The book compelled me to imagine myself 25 years from hence. I wasn't happy at the prospects of seeing myself as a middle-aged bloke who had outlived the best part of his life i.e. the youth. the prospect of losing my youth really made me sad. Several years from now, when I come
here for my reunion what would be the scenario? All my pals, bubbling today with zeal and ambition, will have grown into silver haired, bear-bellied "uncles". The lovelies of today will then be grown-up and blown-up mothers. All of us would have more or less achieved what we
were destined for. We, an ambitious, greedy lot now, would have been mellowed by the innumerable compromises life would have forced us to make. Our faces hardened by the vagaries of our professional lives, our hearts hardened by the responsibilities of personal life, our ambitions belittled by the realities of life. Some of us might even be "Late". And so will be the professors I admire. I was horrified at the scenario.

What if I fail to achieve what I dream today? Will I be able to cherish my old college days at the reunion then? What if I succed and then bump here into an old bright buddy who could not succeed? Will I be able to stand that moment?

I am really having a very good time these days. Days are difficult and demanding and yet the challenge in life is a motivation strong enough to keep me going. I am surviving on my dreams. Everyday, something happens which reminds me to be grateful to the Almighty for having made me "different" and "privileged" and that the onus now lies on me to make the best use of His bestowments. With every passing day, I am liking my life more and more. I am eager to step out and realise my dreams and yet I do not want to lose these college days. But I know will have to. Very soon, I will have to grow up.

Alas, very soon....

Amazing!!

If you think you are beaten, you are;
If you think you dare not, you don't.
If you'd like to win, but think you can't
It's almost a cinch you won't.
If you think you'll lose, you've lost,
For out in the world we find
Success begins with a fellow's will;
It's all in the state of mind.

If you think you're outclassed, you are:
You've got to think high to rise.
You've got to be sure of yourself before
You can ever win a prize.
Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster man,
But soon or late the man who wins
Is the one who thinks he can.



This was amazing. It motivate me so much that withing moments my spirits rose from zilch to zenith. Hope it has the same effect on all those who read it.

Freedom Lost

Holidays are over!! And gone is the freedom that I had since last one month.

Its so bad now. Again all those boing lectures, tiresome labs and loads of assignments.

It is fun to leave under pressure but this sem, it is just going to be too much.

College has again become full of people, the same old people. But they are the people whom I will miss a lot once I leave this beautifil place.

I read "not a peny more not a penny less" by jeffrey Archer today. Wasn't very impressive. It was just another story without surorising twists and interesting plots. The language was also not very impressive.

Since last 45 days, I could lay my hands on only one good book. That was India unbound by Gurcharan Das. ALl other books that I read were ordinary and forgetable. Today only, I spent one half hour looking for a good book in the library but couldn't find any. I will have to turn to bok-club for help now.

Rebellion!!!

Yes, we are planning a rebellion, a rebellion against the institute for not having acted on time and thereby spoiling our senior's one full year.

The insti wasn't agile enough in acquiring the AIU membership and the terrible outcome of this goof-up, I have already described here. Up to now, I had been thinking that only CAT aspirants were at loss. But today, I came to know that we do not have sufficinet approvals for anything - M.B.A, M.S or M.Tech. So if before we pass out the college does not get the approval, the only option we are left with is to get a bachelor's degree from an open university like IGNOU and then write whatever exam we want but that will definitely diminish our chances of getting admission into a very good insititute.

Tommorow, we are supposed to register for the next semester. But in stead, we will register our protest. We will not pay the fees tommorow. We will pay them day after tommorow with a fine of 300. Now this fine is really a big amount. But this time, we need to show unity. Some people of our batch have shown the gumption to come forward and challenge the college authorities and we must support them.

I talked to a senior and very respected faculty member today. After that conversation, I was even more convinced that college was only responsible for the unfortunate thing that happened with pur seniors. My opinion for the administration of the institute became even more negative after today's talk.

Imagine what all could happen if the directors fails to get the recognition even this year. I am sure joining DA-IICT would then become the biggest mistake of my life. Bastard Kudchadker, didn't he know that such a thing could happen? How could he play such a game with lives of young bright students with dreams unlimited? How could he be so careless? Are those bloody Synapse people the only students of this fucking institute? He stretches himself to make DA-IICT a name known in American universities but he doesn't care to solve the more important matters at home. If he doesn't do anything for us on time, we are going to badmouth the institute so much during counselling that many of the prospective students will run away.